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so fun fact about me is I got one of my eyes surgically removed so like now I have this socket. Every morning I pour liquid eyeliner in the pit and like most of it comes out but the pit is still coated so I wear these glasses to cover it up.
I LOVE EYELINER
This is totally not a joke.
-Dead Man
0159
#156- mom I'm in pain
Sep. 26th, 2025 17:48I haven't felt good for about 5 months. I've been trying fix it but... idk how.
I tried but I just made it worse. I asked Ian for help fixing it like what the fuck should I do and she doesn't know. WHICH IS CRAZY. Ms. Knows Things didn't know smth.
so maybe there isn't a way to fix it?
You should know me well enough to know I don't mean that.
-Dead Man
1759
I tried but I just made it worse. I asked Ian for help fixing it like what the fuck should I do and she doesn't know. WHICH IS CRAZY. Ms. Knows Things didn't know smth.
so maybe there isn't a way to fix it?
You should know me well enough to know I don't mean that.
-Dead Man
1759
#155- will delete
Sep. 24th, 2025 20:48GUYS
so so so Ian has this pair of pants that has a loop for a hammer so I call them hammer pants and OH MY GOD
I WISH Ian had a dick
the amount of times I imagined Ian having a dick in those pants
FUCK BRO
the things I would do to them...
In a straight way brother!
-Dead Man
2053
so so so Ian has this pair of pants that has a loop for a hammer so I call them hammer pants and OH MY GOD
I WISH Ian had a dick
the amount of times I imagined Ian having a dick in those pants
FUCK BRO
the things I would do to them...
In a straight way brother!
-Dead Man
2053
#154- woof
Sep. 21st, 2025 22:12[GUY NAME] called me handsome which means that hes a lying liar who lies. I've low key run outta things to talk to him about but I really like talking to him
woof!
Dead Mans bored ig
the thing that boys have to go through...being chained up all the time or somethin
-Dead Man
2217
woof!
Dead Mans bored ig
the thing that boys have to go through...being chained up all the time or somethin
-Dead Man
2217
#153- woof!
Sep. 20th, 2025 13:30I'm not even good for her. She only likes me cause she thought I was smart and rich. I shouldn't be with her cause ik i'll prolly js end up hurting her. shes starting to resent me or hate me or js be apathetic towards me idfk
you didn't see this post
-Dead Man
1333
you didn't see this post
-Dead Man
1333
#152- I'm gonna throw up
Sep. 18th, 2025 17:57There was an episode of Criminal Minds where the unsub (the bad guy) is killing people who interact with kids. not in inappropriate ways, just innocently. The unsub was like abused as a kid or smth.
I’m a bit too much like that I fear. God I hate parents. I’ve never met a parent I’ve liked. They've always done something wrong. I’m sure that people hate me for how much I hate parents. My friends get mad when I’m mean to their parents but who can be nice? don’t fucking scream at your kid for one bad grade then expect me to kiss your ass.
UGH THEY EXPECT SO MUCH. “Yes ma’am, no sir, what ever to say God.” LIKE JESUS FUCK. GET OFF YOUR FUCKING HIGH HORSE.
Anyways, the issue is getting worse. My neck really hurts. I'm scared. I'm really fucking scared. I want to lay in the arms of someone I care about. I was supposed to see Ian tomorrow but she can't get a ride and I can't give one. My neck hurts.
-Dead Man
1801
I’m a bit too much like that I fear. God I hate parents. I’ve never met a parent I’ve liked. They've always done something wrong. I’m sure that people hate me for how much I hate parents. My friends get mad when I’m mean to their parents but who can be nice? don’t fucking scream at your kid for one bad grade then expect me to kiss your ass.
UGH THEY EXPECT SO MUCH. “Yes ma’am, no sir, what ever to say God.” LIKE JESUS FUCK. GET OFF YOUR FUCKING HIGH HORSE.
Anyways, the issue is getting worse. My neck really hurts. I'm scared. I'm really fucking scared. I want to lay in the arms of someone I care about. I was supposed to see Ian tomorrow but she can't get a ride and I can't give one. My neck hurts.
-Dead Man
1801
#151- Lore drop!
Sep. 17th, 2025 23:09So [GUY NAME] is lore dropping about his life. CRAZY. I like that I'm getting to know him more. I just have VERY mixed feelings on him. I wanna lore drop on him but I'm worried he'll either end up being a pos to me or js get weirded out and leave. Then we wouldn't be friends anymore and it would be weird cause he's js kinda... always there?? like idk how to describe it. He knew my brother, dated a guy I'm loosely friends with, is friends with one of the three main people in my life, everyone is so connected so the thought of us being not chill SUCKS.
wtv, idc, idc
might invite him over to js chill, idk (I'm fully aware he'll see this)
-Dead Man
2319
wtv, idc, idc
might invite him over to js chill, idk (I'm fully aware he'll see this)
-Dead Man
2319
#149- more gay that straight
Sep. 8th, 2025 14:58mk so like USUALLY I range between 5-15 or 20 percent gay but for the past week of so I've been hella gay. WISH my sexuality was less fluid. I'd be happy being a good steady 70-80 percent straight for the rest of my life but NO DEAD MANS DICK CAN'T CHOOSE WHO HE WANTS TO BE IN. dw gang soon I'm be mostly straight again for a few months or so, idk.
Ian should grow a dick that'll fall off in like a fortnight
-Dead Man
1504
Ian should grow a dick that'll fall off in like a fortnight
-Dead Man
1504
so one of my main people is like busy asf and UGH
my other main person and I aren't great. I'm kinda being a dick and I hate myself for that. I'm being a dick bc its just a matter of time they are so much worse to me. I meantioned smth and I knew they were gonna be a dick, just the fucking way they looked at me. I basically just fucking left because I didn't want to deal with it. not again. I love them but its tiring.
nice to me
freaks out about something small
talks about how its not their fault
cries because they feel like I am abandoning them
-Dead Man
2323
my other main person and I aren't great. I'm kinda being a dick and I hate myself for that. I'm being a dick bc its just a matter of time they are so much worse to me. I meantioned smth and I knew they were gonna be a dick, just the fucking way they looked at me. I basically just fucking left because I didn't want to deal with it. not again. I love them but its tiring.
nice to me
freaks out about something small
talks about how its not their fault
cries because they feel like I am abandoning them
-Dead Man
2323
#147- I could be a good father
Sep. 5th, 2025 17:53Ian sent me a video of like her young asf nephews playing and god. I wish I was a father. Every day of 7th grade I would tell Evan "I want a kid" I eventually shut up, the feeling eventually faded, never disappearing. I *really* want a son. I would probably just fuck it up tho.
My dads old boss is like 60 or 70 smth, hes never had kids so he loves it whenever a kid interacts with him. Still trying to set up a time for him to teach me how to shoot cause my dad is a pussy ass bitch.
-Dead Man
1800
My dads old boss is like 60 or 70 smth, hes never had kids so he loves it whenever a kid interacts with him. Still trying to set up a time for him to teach me how to shoot cause my dad is a pussy ass bitch.
-Dead Man
1800
#146- I'm fucking tired
Sep. 4th, 2025 10:49I sleep 7-8 hours every night and nap most days but I'm still so tired, barely able to get out of bed like as if I only got three hours.
I'm going outside tomorrow! /Vneg. Excited to see Ian and another guy that'll be at the library but like I have to be a person??? ugh.
I could yap about my ed but frankly everyone is tired of me talking about it. No one cares Dead Man
Ian is like "what pants should I wear to the library" and gave me choices and I do't even pick out my own clothes you want me to pick yours??? I kinda panicked and I think I picked two completely different bottoms so lets see what happens!!! god I miss her
-Dead Man
1055
I'm going outside tomorrow! /Vneg. Excited to see Ian and another guy that'll be at the library but like I have to be a person??? ugh.
I could yap about my ed but frankly everyone is tired of me talking about it. No one cares Dead Man
Ian is like "what pants should I wear to the library" and gave me choices and I do't even pick out my own clothes you want me to pick yours??? I kinda panicked and I think I picked two completely different bottoms so lets see what happens!!! god I miss her
-Dead Man
1055
#144- ___ in Drag
Sep. 1st, 2025 01:53A pity she does not exist
A shame he's not a fag
The only girl I ever loved was
___ in drag
There is no hope of love for me
From here on I'll go stag
The only girl I'll ever love is
___ in drag
So stick him in a dress and
He's the only boy I'd shag
The only boy I'd anything is
___ in drag
I'll never see that girl again
He did it to make me happy
I'll pine away forevermore for
___ in drag
Its uh the super cool song but changed to fit my current... situation
-Dead Man
0200
A shame he's not a fag
The only girl I ever loved was
___ in drag
There is no hope of love for me
From here on I'll go stag
The only girl I'll ever love is
___ in drag
So stick him in a dress and
He's the only boy I'd shag
The only boy I'd anything is
___ in drag
I'll never see that girl again
He did it to make me happy
I'll pine away forevermore for
___ in drag
Its uh the super cool song but changed to fit my current... situation
-Dead Man
0200
#141- boy eepy x9
Aug. 30th, 2025 09:07Jesus fucking christ. literally JUMPED up when I woke up. One second I was in my dream, going through one of the messiest days of my life and the next I'm sat up in my bed, panting, wondering how I magicly fucking teleported. then I thought I had school today.
AHHHHH
so that was my morning
gonna watch this new show that I like and eat cheerios
-Dead Man
0912
AHHHHH
so that was my morning
gonna watch this new show that I like and eat cheerios
-Dead Man
0912
#140- Ugh.
Aug. 29th, 2025 23:46Shes getting close with him again. I don't fucking care that they go to the same school and do the same after school activities. Fucking happy she has friends. But twice now shes called him instead of me. The other night she went "I'm making food rn, we can call after" then fell asleep on the phone with him. We didn't call. I sound like a fucking child "oh no my girlfriend won't call me" but ugh I never get to see her and I love her voice. Shes been different lately and god it pmo.
I sound like a middle schooler who js learned about cursing
shes gonna get upset when she sees this... still gonna post tho
-Dead Man
2352
I sound like a middle schooler who js learned about cursing
shes gonna get upset when she sees this... still gonna post tho
-Dead Man
2352
#138- affection
Aug. 28th, 2025 09:53I miss the people I care about (line taken from Ian)
Hugs and cuddles from my brother is nice, earlier he was sleeping and I held his hand, he immediately cuddled up to me like his body knows where home is. Like idk what I'd be without that, without him. But I miss everyone else, I miss Ians lap and all my friends.
My fault really, I'm not like- leaving my apartment or inviting anyone over or anything. Ugh I like so don't wanna be perceived, yknow?
-Dead Man
1000
Hugs and cuddles from my brother is nice, earlier he was sleeping and I held his hand, he immediately cuddled up to me like his body knows where home is. Like idk what I'd be without that, without him. But I miss everyone else, I miss Ians lap and all my friends.
My fault really, I'm not like- leaving my apartment or inviting anyone over or anything. Ugh I like so don't wanna be perceived, yknow?
-Dead Man
1000
#135- Hear not Hate
Aug. 25th, 2025 14:10I miss when they would listen, like actually listen. They cared about me, what I thought, and my feelings. They don't anymore, they don't care, I'm scared to speak because it will drive them further away. I just want them to care again, hold me while I talk about my problems, and fucking respond like your actually fucking listening instead of arguing.
I sound like my mother.
-Dead Man
1414
I sound like my mother.
-Dead Man
1414
I like never get to hang out with Evan largely cause hes in marching band. GUESS WHAT. yeah so Ian is in marching band and uh I will never see bro. we don't even live in the same country! (city)
Ian JUST got home. I got to call with him for a full 8 minutes!!! God I already hate this. change is hard. I'm harder.
-Dead Man
2040
Ian JUST got home. I got to call with him for a full 8 minutes!!! God I already hate this. change is hard. I'm harder.
-Dead Man
2040
last night I found out how much Ian can deep throat... bro. dude. dude bro. yeah so I can't wait till I see her again!!!
anyways, I called with her for an hour and it was pretty pog. she started school yesterday so I can't talk to her all day but I could prolly call her like most nights so YAY! YIPPIE! HOORAY!
anyways x2, I haven't been sleeping well but drinking energy drink so I can like kinda focus. it SUCKS
-Dead Man
1005
anyways, I called with her for an hour and it was pretty pog. she started school yesterday so I can't talk to her all day but I could prolly call her like most nights so YAY! YIPPIE! HOORAY!
anyways x2, I haven't been sleeping well but drinking energy drink so I can like kinda focus. it SUCKS
-Dead Man
1005
