#50- Child.

As a kid I was never attached to stuffed animals. I never played like other kids. In the back of my mind I knew that I was different. No one wanted to play with me, kids would ask about my toys and stuffys and I would stare blankly.
I'm still different. I have this bear, my brother has a matching one, Theres more to my Bears back story but thats a story for another time. No one my age is attached to a stuffed animal. No one my age is a fucking child. I know that people think it's weird. I take him places and people mention him, but in a weird way. Looking at me and speaking to me like I'm mentally disabled. Like I don't understand the world around me. Like I'm a child that they must take pity on. Fuck You.
Ians weird about it. Of course he is. I don't blame him. These days he's nice about it, the kind of nice where your hiding the real truth. There was this one time, he came over and wanted to lay on my bed so he silently and gently moved Bear. It was one of those times where someone does something small but it means alot and one can't stop thinking about it. I was going to hide Bear away when she came over cause... Yknow, but I just... couldn't.

Dead Man, would you rather have people think you hate yourself or have people think you pretend you hate yourself to cover your narcissist traits?
Well other person thats actually just me, narcissists hate themselves. People don't know that because people don't know much about narcissists, people often just ca-
Shut up.


-Dead Man
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