#52- I don't care

I was talking to my girlfriend about how in kindergarten, I wished I was dropped off at the door of my class instead of at the front of the school. She just assumed that it was my mom who dropped me off at school. In the same way kids would always assume that. In the same way kids would always assume that my mom packed me lunch and made dinner every night. In the same way that people assumed my mom picked me up for school. In the same way people assumed my mom took me to the doctors when needed. In the same way everyone fucking assumed that my mom was at all in my fucking life.
IN THE SAME WAY THAT ADULTS WOULD SAY "TELL YOUR MOMMY TO-" FUCK YOU. FUCK. YOU. I WOULD GO DAYS WITHOUT SEEING HER, YKNOW WHO I WOULD SEE EVERY DAY? MY DAD. MY DAD GOT ME TO SCHOOL. MY DAD MADE DINNER. MY DAD TOOK ME TO THE HOSPITAL. MY DAD TOOK ME TO THE AQUARIUM.
YKNOW WHAT MY MOM DID? I'LL SHOW YOU

that was gay


-Dead Man
0404

#53- Just got woken up

I just woke up to my wife calling me. she was like "I have news for you." Her voice was different in a way I couldn't quite make out. She informed me that the U.S. bombed Iran. I'm panicked. I notice no one else is. I'm not sure what's going to happen. I know I won't get drafted unless 'If they can hold a gun, they can fight' goes into place. If so, we'll all be dead anyway.
Current worry: Iran bombs my state and kills me


-soon to be Dead Man
1759

#54- Grrrr

I haven't had violent thoughts in a while. But these past two weeks or so a certain thought is plaguing my mind.
It goes- A guy I once knew in a way, me, and some others are in a circle. We're all hanging out and talking casualty until he says something. Something he's said before but I won't clearify in this post. I step towards him and casually sweep his legs, he falls to the hard ground and everyone freaks out. People are mostly shocked as I've never done something like that before and I act as if I didn't. "are you okay? you fell."
It blows over quickly as no real harm was done. Watching him fall was So. Fucking. Satisfying.
Boring, I know. Slightly causing harm like that isn't exactly what one would think of when hearing the term "violent thought"


-Dead Man
2346