#88- ouch

I've been taking way to many pain meds for so long I forgot what pain is. I've had a headache all day and it's only getting worse.

Anyways, talking about Ian, I miss her. Everytime I see a photo of her or even think of her, I just think of how much better than me she looks. she's so fucking pretty I'm going to kill myself. does she see it to? how we look side by side? I wish I looked like her
Whatever. I don't fucking care. No one cares.

Today we were talking about me dying (business as usual) and she said that she'll have to bring glasses to my funeral incase it's an open casket and I wasn't wearing any. That was pretty cool


-Dead Man
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