#68- not 14
Jul. 3rd, 2025 04:45![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
not_realhey so I'm not 14. I'm not 14. I always instinctively say I'm 14, been doing it since I was 12. I wonder how long it'll last for. Everytime I say it I don't even notice, then this weird, creeping feeling washs over me. Dead Man isn't 14. I once said it on the phone with Ian, it was in the middle of something I was saying and when I was done talking he stayed silent then went "you... aren't 14" (paraphrasing).
It felt like getting hit by a truck. It felt like finding out your sister is actually your mom and the woman who you called "mom" for 18 years is actually your grandma. It felt like having an episode and someone confonts your delusions. It felt like... I'm not 14.
I don't like not being 14. I'm mentally stuck at 14. alot happened at 14. alot didn't.
I'm crying for help. this is a cry for help
-Dead Man
0456
It felt like getting hit by a truck. It felt like finding out your sister is actually your mom and the woman who you called "mom" for 18 years is actually your grandma. It felt like having an episode and someone confonts your delusions. It felt like... I'm not 14.
I don't like not being 14. I'm mentally stuck at 14. alot happened at 14. alot didn't.
I'm crying for help. this is a cry for help
-Dead Man
0456
