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#118- Dead Man went out
Aug. 8th, 2025 00:33I went to Evans school event!! Dead Man is proud of himself for going - not only leaving the estate but leaving the city!! it helped that I’ve been here before and ik someone here but I still got that like stomach ache nausea thing and uhhhh almost pussyed out… I DIDNT THOUGH!!!!!
my paranoia was… worse than I thought. I kept hearing someone next to me then I looked and there was no one, I kept feeling eyes on me, anytime someone walked near me I got worried, and uh yeah. I kept telling myself like “stop being self absorbed, no one’s targeting you” but uhh logic wasn’t working
It was a very informal event so there was alot of time in between things, I kept busy by looking around at all the scenery and texting my hoes (Ian isn’t a ho. I’m sorry Ian. do you still love me?)
Seeing him was pog, I never get to see him. He was smiling and laughing and he's super animated which like is so fucking cool. Like I forget he's not in a fucking computer like he has a body
going out can suck though, my glasses are... painful. I hate existing
-Dead Man
0038
my paranoia was… worse than I thought. I kept hearing someone next to me then I looked and there was no one, I kept feeling eyes on me, anytime someone walked near me I got worried, and uh yeah. I kept telling myself like “stop being self absorbed, no one’s targeting you” but uhh logic wasn’t working
It was a very informal event so there was alot of time in between things, I kept busy by looking around at all the scenery and texting my hoes (Ian isn’t a ho. I’m sorry Ian. do you still love me?)
Seeing him was pog, I never get to see him. He was smiling and laughing and he's super animated which like is so fucking cool. Like I forget he's not in a fucking computer like he has a body
going out can suck though, my glasses are... painful. I hate existing
-Dead Man
0038
