#125- exes, am I right?

I would still text him when he was gone. the messages would bounce back, always showing that damn error code.
"I love you"
"I miss you"
"I'm sorry"
I know they wouldn't respond. ofc they wouldn't. but that error code HURT.
No contact order put in place.


-Dead Man
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#126- school! /vneg

The program that I use for school isn't like... built for a single student to take 11 classes. So there are like glitches and shit. keeping track of just 6 is hard enough, but ELEVEN? god. I almost went to this school that did only one class at a time. like for a month straight each student only had one subject then the next month they are on a new one. Honestly, I regret not going to that school but I wouldn't have been able to meet the people who have come into my life in the past like two and a half years + I wouldn't be able to see Evan like... basically at all so cool I didn't.
my phycolagy class is such a bitch. I can't work ahead. I hate that. I hate how I can't work ahead in like basically any of my classes. so I'll only have a day to do a long ass assignment while having ten other classes
ignore how... disorganized I am... It's the stress


-Dead Man
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#127- not... feeling great

Ian called me depressed a bit ago and I don't believe him but getting called depressed today felt too accurate.
I just got off the phone with Evan. I started with js like small talk then just unloaded like a decent amount of shit then went "and I wanted to cut myself so I called you" and he was like so pog. I was trying to not cry/trying to hide that I was crying (I don't cry infront of him, its a thing lol) so like I was out of breath cause that helps to not cry which then js led me to trying to hide that I was out of breath while I was pacing faster and faster on my balcony which made that worse duh and uh hey I'm normal right?
honestly I'm happy I couldn't go to Ian, I rely on him to much. he always says it doesn't bother him but honestly ik it does at least a little.
I miss that one person.


-Dead Man
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